today is not going so well

around 9am, a cold morning in lexington michigan. large cabin in woods off of the beach, an argument ensues. go to town to clear mind but run into a problem, left smol purse on counter in cabin. pocket a kit kat at gas station, man they used to taste so good. smile and wave at cashier while leaving place. that guy seems nice. start car and get stupid fucking orange thing for tires low on pressure, remember no purse no wallet no moneh. the day is not going so well. maybe i will enjoy this candy and head back to the cabin. do that. back at cabin saw three cute deer outside woods. need to stop thinking about them, not the deer. really sad moment of memories. day not going gud. there u r, at the door waiting smiling nothing happened right. get out of car to nice breeze and snow gets into shoe. today is not going the best. get a hug, its warm and i already forgotted oops. lets be happy i like it when ur happy. u r so sweet, u made these pancakes for me? yes thats awesum thanx. cuddles.. nice warm food in my belly now, cant finish tho. . . something else cant finish, how does nothing turn to something all the time. this weird anger in my brain is bad and irrational. im crazy i tell u. im not crazy well ok then im ok with u too. remember.. sad cry into u for the last time, at least while ur warm in there. u look kinda pale today, havent been getting much sun lately here up north. ur eyes r so lively today, brown, pretty brown eyes sparkling. the tv turns on.
somewhere between 6 n 10 pm, u should have a job, im sorry for letting it get to this point, cry. remember them, not the deer. its getting kinda lateight be smart to head back. u wanna spend the night. ah i see u r horny again.. how fun. this day is not going so well... post monkey brain moment, congrats u won a prize. here is ur temporary happiness. i will remember today for the rest of my life, i just dont know it yet. im happy i think. lets get to bed, we r still on this uncomfy couch. in bed now...  i <3 u. i <3 u too. wow i still cant believe i met u. wow thats crazy. do u ever miss them? the deer? not the deer.
about midnight. u having fun with the new wifi? i noticed. no im not mad. oh boy here it goes again. youtube playing video of a familiar face. do u ever wonder wut its like to be.. oh ur asleep already. wrapped around u now, waiting to wake i guess. im not ready to wake up yet. ill see u tomorrow