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[14:55:33] zazuge: hello
[14:56:57] zazuge: I'm not planning on reconcilling with you or anything lame of the sort, but I want to setlle things straight
[14:57:49] zazuge: is it true?
[14:59:57] zazuge: I really liked you back then but it's finished now, and I'm planning to move on, I also liked nipah alot, I was more shocked by the fact that I might loose nipah than by you
[15:00:02] zazuge: I'm really jealous of you right now
[15:06:35] zazuge: I don't know if this message reach you
[15:07:29] zazuge: well my best wishs for you two
[15:08:30] zazuge: but rest assured, I'm waiting for you to fail and get back nipah from you ^^
[15:09:46] zazuge: I sincerly hope you'll find the happiness you hoped for
[15:10:12] zazuge: sayonara
[15:10:37] zazuge: I wanted to say more stuff, but it's lame to talk with myself for long
[15:27:53] 破滅: Sorry, I was at the store.
[15:28:10] 破滅: Yes, it's true and he'll be coming over at the 16th of July. ;u;
[15:28:23] zazuge: O_O
[15:28:28] 破滅: I'm sad to say  that you're not getting him back any time soon.
[15:28:36] zazuge: hehe
[15:28:37] 破滅: Or ever.
[15:28:42] zazuge: *weep*
[15:28:54] zazuge: ;_;
[15:29:08] 破滅: I knew you'd react like that.
[15:29:13] zazuge: why?
[15:29:42] zazuge: I know I'm a sore loser
[15:30:01] 破滅: What why?
[15:30:15] zazuge: I mean reacting like that
[15:31:18] 破滅: Because we competed, sort of, who can get nipah first.
[15:31:29] zazuge: true
[15:31:42] 破滅: But you didn't really know that.
[15:32:21] zazuge: I think nipah sent me numerous cues, but I pretended not to see
[15:32:37] 破滅: Elaborate, please.
[15:32:41] zazuge: or i was too dense
[15:33:04] 破滅: I don't know what you mean by "cues"(I think you meant clues)
[15:33:26] zazuge: meant some signs of something going on
[15:33:30] zazuge: subconsious stuff
[15:33:44] zazuge: well never mind
[15:33:57] zazuge: I just want to make sure of something
[15:34:47] 破滅: Of something going on?
[15:35:05] 破滅: As in him liking  you back or as in us dating?
[15:35:43] zazuge: I think he was aware of my feelings or something like that
[15:36:08] zazuge: also there was signs something between two was developping in the past month
[15:36:14] zazuge: you two*
[15:36:40] 破滅: Ah, I think we acted as usual on the channel, though.
[15:36:46] zazuge: no not
[15:36:58] zazuge: in PM he told me about you two chatting alot
[15:37:13] zazuge: also he said lots of "vulpia did" "vulpia said"
[15:37:24] zazuge: so he was talking about you all the damn time
[15:37:59] zazuge: and he did even defend your acts on the channel
[15:38:03] 破滅: I see. I'm glad, but I'm sad that you also had to endure it since you have a thing for him.
[15:38:12] zazuge: .....
[15:38:26] zazuge: yeah, when he asked me if I was jealous
[15:38:32] zazuge: I said damn I was
[15:38:47] 破滅: At least you were honest.
[15:38:52] zazuge: but I told him I'mnot sure of "who am I jealous of"
[15:39:03] 破滅: Ah, right.
[15:39:27] 破滅: Also, you said: [15:33:57] zazuge: I just want to make sure of something <-- What is that something?
[15:39:49] zazuge: last time you told me on channel "I love you"
[15:40:33] 破滅: I wasn't serious. When I have the need to tell someone I love them, I don't choose who to tell that to.
[15:40:42] zazuge: I see
[15:40:53] zazuge: I hope you're not rewriting your history
[15:41:00] 破滅: Hm?
[15:41:08] zazuge: I liked you back then alot
[15:41:24] zazuge: before  stuff happened and It turned to hate
[15:41:50] zazuge: I realised then that i liked nipah more
[15:42:12] zazuge: well I lost ...
[15:42:19] zazuge: congratulations
[15:42:34] 破滅: But what does that have to do with rewriting my history?
[15:42:39] 破滅: Thanks, though. :)
[15:42:52] zazuge: no idea, I said "I hope it's like you said"
[15:43:08] zazuge: I want to be honest with myself till the bitter end
[15:43:14] zazuge: I hope
[15:43:18] zazuge: I always failed to romance and love
[15:43:21] zazuge: at*
[15:43:39 | Edited 15:43:49] zazuge: a last word before I stop blabing
[15:44:40] zazuge: nipah really hate and can't forgive people who manipulate others when depressed
[15:44:43] zazuge: it happened in the past
[15:44:53] zazuge: he will fogive everything besides that
[15:44:57] 破滅: Hm?
[15:45:18] 破滅: So I'm a manipulative bitch who tries to make depressed people commit suicide now?
[15:45:23] zazuge: I don't mean anything by that
[15:45:52] zazuge: the origine of the drama was someone manipulating another depressed person and adding to their missfortune
[15:46:12] zazuge: that person left for good, and nipah was really pissed at them
[15:46:14] 破滅: Well, let me tell you something.
[15:46:48] 破滅: If you're grown up enough to fall in love, you're grown up enough that you understand you're the only one adding to your misfortune.
[15:46:52] zazuge: don't read too much into that, I sincerly hope for your happiness
[15:47:06] 破滅: There's no one in the world that can do that unless you allow them to.
[15:47:20] 破滅: Lets have your situation as an example.
[15:47:28] zazuge: I didn't mean that someone added to my missfortune, I can only blame myself
[15:47:46] 破滅: You live in a shit place and you don't want to move from there.
[15:47:53] 破滅: You stay there by your own will.
[15:48:02] zazuge: also objectivly speaking it wasn't reall serious missfortune, just a small trial in my life, and I'm a failure and a sore loser , that's all
[15:48:12] 破滅: But you constantly nag about yourself being the poor, mistreated human.
[15:48:37] zazuge: lets leave it in good terms
[15:48:43] 破滅: Really, I personally don't attack the weakest memeber of the group.
[15:48:43] zazuge: take good care of nipah
[15:48:53] 破滅: I will, but let me finish.
[15:49:32] 破滅: Basically, you're allowing people, especially me, to do anything to you because you don't understand when to stop.
[15:49:44] 破滅: Stop complianing if you don't want help.
[15:49:58] zazuge: I'll keep that in mind
[15:49:59] 破滅: Because no one will like you, ever, if you keep going on.
[15:50:15] 破滅: Just like everyone sees salanos as a little sissy bitch.
[15:50:29] zazuge: he's adorable thought
[15:50:42] zazuge: but yes, sometimes I want to slap him
[15:51:31] 破滅: Then you and salanos should be best buddies, telling each other about your shitty  lives while not listening to the other.
[15:51:40] zazuge: I really hate my weak self, I'm doing my all to change
[15:51:56] zazuge: I'm doing weight training workouts
[15:52:08] zazuge: I'll change, rest assured
[15:52:18] 破滅: I have no problem with you nor do I hate you, though. You can hate me all you want, but I will not stay quiet when I have an argument to something you say.
[15:52:34] zazuge: I said I no longer hate/like you
[15:52:43] zazuge: I only care about nipah now
[15:52:58] zazuge: If he's happy with you I'm fine with that
[15:53:03] zazuge: but it was such a shock
[15:53:11] 破滅: Are you really?
[15:53:14] zazuge: why vulpia of all people ;_;
[15:53:29] 破滅: Because I can be a great person to people who deserve it.
[15:53:40] zazuge: a tsundere ?
[15:53:53] zazuge: I can't stand tsunderes even in anime/manga ...
[15:54:03] zazuge: it must be some kind of disease
[15:54:45] 破滅: No, I would probably classify myself as a yandere, but I don't know if there's a type that despises pathetic people while giving all the love to people who aren't pathetic.
[15:56:13] zazuge: true
[15:56:26] zazuge: I'll stop being pathetic and find my life-love
[15:56:50] zazuge: thank you for you wise-criticism, and have a happy life
[15:56:52] zazuge: your*
[15:57:09] 破滅: I think it's a part of you by now, but I'm glad to see you optimistic.
[15:57:20] 破滅: No problem, come again~
[15:57:34] zazuge: .......
[15:57:36] zazuge: die