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- Chapter 2: Insistingly, Isshiki Iroha Has Something to Confirm
- The windows aside were dyed with the colors of the sunset.
- A dark blue presence slowly stretched itself from the other side of the sky, the flickering
- road lamps illuminates the path for the leaving students.
- Even though the length of daylight has slightly extended, night still seems to have fallen
- rather early. The total silence from the soccer field where most sports club operate on
- tells me that the school gates will soon close.
- The time spent in the staff room wasn't too long, but enough to change the scenery
- within the campus. As if we have lost our sense of time within that small isolated space.
- Within that tiny gap of time where I looked away from the windows, things continued to
- change.
- Even by now, as I walk on this short path that leads me from staff room to the student
- council room, new circumstances might have arose without me realizing it.
- Being aware of the changes that could happen in any minute, I made haste on my
- footsteps.
- This passageway with no presence of anyone other than myself, is filled up by the
- sunset's afterglow.
- In comparison to the special block or new school building that has better lighting, the
- transparent windows being the only light source here gives off a more chilling sensation,
- while during winter things would look much more colder in this corridor.
- The sounds of footsteps echoed within the chilly air.
- Not the lively flapping kind of footsteps, nor the bold heavy kind of footsteps, but mushy
- sounds of footsteps that gave off a sense of wetness.
- As I'm in a hurry, I walked in an awkward way, where I can feel one my shoes stepping
- on the heel of the other at times.
- But I can't stop just yet.
- Not stopping is already a big improvement by itself.
- My body felt lighter after the talk with Hiratsuka sensei.
- I now have a clear image of the things that I want to do, the things that I wish to own.
- Ignore anything unnecessary, throw away the questions accumulated in my mind, stop
- thinking about those concerns that loomed in my heart.
- Leave everything else behind, keeping only the mission, and work on it like a robot.
- As long as this can be solved, its fine to shove everything else aside, what I must do now,
- is to seek for every single option that I could make use of.
- As I kept walking, I have reached the very end of the afterglow in the passageway.
- The seemingly continuous flow of windows were replaced by the walls that links to the
- student council room.
- The door to the student council room was closed shut, and no voices were heard from
- the inside, making my own breathing the only sound audible to me. I took some time to
- regulate my breath in order to calm myself down.
- It has been a few days since I've ever met Yukinoshita and Iroha, the last time we met, is
- the day when Yukinoshita's mother came over to the school to request for the
- cancellation of the prom. Our last conversation being a refusal that hardly counts as a
- proper talk.
- Which is why staying calm and composed is crucial to what happens next. If any one of
- us have our feelings take over ourselves, it will be impossible for us to reach a common
- ground.
- Alright, this shouldn't be that big of a problem, after all my emotions have died off to the
- point that it has reached a negative value! But wait, isn't that worse?
- Can I do it? Can I do it? (Heartbeat rises)...Ah yes, ah yes, I can do it I can do it,
- gambatei~gambatei <3
- This extremely out of character encouragement I made to myself had a surprisingly
- uplifting effect on my mood, thus I took advantage this change, and knocked on the door.
- "Coming~"
- Iroha's voice and sounds of approaching footsteps could be heard.
- The door soon opened up, as I looked into the door seam, her flaxen brown colored hair
- could be seen swaying around, along her long woolen sweater that shone under the
- sunset.
- Isshiki Iroha's head then popped out from the half opened door, and soon as she saw me,
- her expression turned from her originally cute curious face into a...face that spells of
- yabai desu.
- "...Ah."
- Iroha took a soft sigh, took a glance behind her, and walked out of the student council
- room cautiously, and closed the door immediately as she stepped out. Looking at me we
- an awkward expression:
- "So you came after all...ahaha."
- "Yeah, is Yukinoshita in there?"
- Iroha looked back at the student council room as she heard my question, implying that
- Yukinoshita is indeed in the room, I then exhaled out gases of relief and nervousness.
- I grabbed onto my pockets to wipe off the sweat on my palm, then moved forward,
- reaching out my arm towards the doorknob.
- As I was about to reach it, Iroha moved left to block my arm. What's this? A crab game?
- Guess the Obamasgone meme even got to the masses huh. I then sent out my left hand,
- which Iroha reacted swiftly, blocking all possible paths I could reach out to the
- doorknob. What's with this one on one defense situation, our national team really need
- someone of your caliber on their defensive line...
- "Uhm......you're blocking the way...can you uh, move aside please?"
- Iroha answered by completely sticking her back onto the doorknob, crossed her arms,
- stared at me and said:
- "Before that, may I know for what exact reason are you here? Unrelated personnel are
- prohibited in this room, you know."
- Iroha wagged her finger while saying this with a stern face, huh, a never seen before
- expression from her. Thanks to the special treatment from both ex and present student
- council president , I've always entered this room without asking permission, but it is a
- rule that unrelated personnel are prohibited from the student council room. And now
- that this rule has been brought up against me, I can't do anything about it either.
- Sigh, for a girl of Iroha's personality this is just so annoying, but then again...the way she
- put one hand on her waist, while waggling her finger on the other looks so cute, not to
- mention that she's pouting too.
- But in contrast to her cute expression, from how she refused to move away from the
- door, I can sense a strong will that won't yield unless I convince her properly, so I'll have
- to be honest with Iroha or she won't budge.
- "...I'm here to help."
- "You can't <3 "
- "Eh......"
- Iroha then moved closer to me and lay out her arms horizontally, as if she is blocking me
- while asserting her dominance.
- But she seemed to realize that I have no intention to leave either, probably knowing this
- situation will probably last very long without any of us giving up, Iroha then asked:
- "So...you already knew about the current situation of the prom?"
- "Yes."
- As she heard my answer, Iroha then knocked on her head with a troubled face. After a
- few moments of silence, she looked back at the room again. She then took a few steps
- away from the room, while signaling me to follow her. It seems that she doesn't want our
- conversation to be overheard by Yukinoshita, at least that seems to be her intention.
- Or I can just ignore her and go straight into the room instead.
- As I sneaked bit by bit towards the door, Iroha who already expected me to do so,
- grabbed onto my cuffs, and dragged me far far away from the room.
- Since I can't just shake off her small hands, I had no choice but to follow Iroha's lead,
- after walking a distance in the corridor, we took a turn, and stopped at the open corridor
- that links the main school building to the special block.
- A long bench was placed at the walls of this air corridor, students tend to gather around
- here in between classes, but now that its late, the only things here are the chilly air that
- fills in the atmosphere and the dim light from the sunset.
- After walking to the bench, Iroha finally let go of me, I rubbed on the cuff of my sleeve to
- make sure that there are no wrinkles, a lingering warmth could felt as I touched it, which
- made my cheeks tickle a little. Geez don't just hold onto my sleeves all of a sudden, this
- makes me feel shy you know.
- "Senpai, I appreciate your intention to help, I personally feel happy about it too but..."
- As Iroha made a pause while leaning her back onto the window, she awkwardly looked
- to the ground, along that long eyelashes of hers.
- "But I can't let you in just yet, more specifically I can't let you meet her."
- "Why?"
- I asked while sitting onto the bench. Iroha lay down her hands and put it behind her,
- sticking onto the windows.
- "To be honest I was thinking that things will get more troublesome if senpai came over
- immediately, so maybe its better if you could come over a bit more later."
- "Well... yes, maybe you're right."
- Its not hard to figure out where she is coming from, since Iroha was there when we had
- that argument. It makes sense for her to be worried, especially after witnessing such a
- pointless dispute. I felt anxious about meeting up with Yukinoshita too, but even so, I
- can't just take a step backwards.
- "...Its fine, I plan to speak to her properly."
- "I P L A N T O S P E A K T O H E R P R O P E R L Y. Eh~~ you sure about that senpai?"
- She stared at me in a very doubtful way...the edges of her lips were twisting as if its
- making a 'ngyeh' sound, her eyebrows look tightly wrinkled too. What's with this level of
- disbelief...her expression made me feel uneasy, so I slowly averted my eyes, and made a
- soft cough.
- "Its true, its true all right? I did make a proper planning on how to startup the
- conversation."
- Bringing up codependency will only stress us off. So for now its better to avoid dealing
- with this matter, and work on the other important issues. Our thoughts might differ, but
- we have the common topic of making the prom a success, and that should allow us to
- have a constructive discussion.
- But man, why is Iroha still putting up that doubtful face...
- "How to start up the conversation huh...can't say that I trust senpai on that."
- "Yeah, sure sucks to have low credibility."
- Being self aware of my life decisions that hardly earned me any credibility, I shrugged
- lightly.
- Iroha then stood silent for a moment as if she's trying to observe something, and let out a
- deep sigh. Guess she's just felt speechless towards me.
- "Senpai, you're being overprotective again."
- As Iroha said so, she walked towards me, gripped onto the edges of her skirt, and gently
- sat beside me. She held onto her forehead, slightly lifting her chin. Her hair rustled lightly
- as they moved across her elbows, glimmering under the sunset, she started to gaze at
- somewhere beyond the windows in front of us.
- "I'm sure that, Yukinoshita senpai is trying her best here. Not that I can't understand how
- she felt."
- "...Well, she definitely is."
- I lay down my hands behind me, and stared at the ceiling above.
- Perhaps Iroha's respond is a better idea. When someone has the intent to complete
- something alone, for the others to take a step back and see things through is probably
- what's better for that person
- "Even so...you still plan to help her?"
- Looking towards the direction of her voice, Iroha's hand continued to lay on her
- forehead, while slightly turning her head towards me, as if she's observing my reactions.
- Even if this action felt pretty childish, very cute, but a chilling sense of seriousness lies
- within her eyes.
- "...That is my intention."
- While I can't trust my dead fish eyeballs to make me look serious at all, I tried to
- compensate by deepening my tone. Iroha stayed silent for a while, seemingly considering
- something, then asked me in a soft tone:
- "Even if...doing so wouldn't benefit Yukinoshita senpai at all, you'll still offer your aid?
- "I never really acted out on the intent of benefiting anyone in the first place, so I'm just
- doing the usual here...yeah."
- "Doing the usual...huh."
- I nodded in reply as she muttered those words in a confused tone. Iroha then laid her
- head down, while I turned my head to look at the windows
- The outcomes have always been the same.
- My words and actions have always end up being far from the correct solution. An endless
- cycle of misunderstanding things and making mistakes, even my apology didn't end up
- well, like a row of buttons that continue to end up in the wrong hole of the shirt.
- This has been repeating throughout the whole year, and before I realize it, winter is
- almost over, the strong winds that indicates the incoming of spring rattles the windows,
- breaking this short moment of silence.
- "To be honest, I don't think that Yukinoshita senpai will accept your offer."
- "Indeed..."
- I accidentally let out a deep sigh, Iroha then came closer and continued saying:
- "In fact, you'll probably be cruelly rejected."
- "That's probably the case..."
- I sighed once again, Iroha moved even closer and stared at me:
- "Even so, you still want to help?"
- "Of course I'll help..."
- Hearing my answer that was followed up by another sigh, Iroha opened her mouth wide
- while leaning her head to her right:
- "Huh!? But why bruh?"
- "Well for why I'm doing so..."
- Is it really that shocking, she even stopped using honorifics at this point, not that it really
- matters...But, did she forgot what she said in the first place...
- "Weren't you the one who asked for my help in the first place..."
- As I said that, Iroha looks frozen for a moment, blinked her eyes for a few times. Then
- took a quick step back, and then shook her hands, while saying rapidly:
- "Wha...what? Are you doing it for me?! What the hell do you have a crush on me or
- something even though I have always received your help even though you always treated
- me nicely and even though I don't dislike you but there are too many things that need to
- be cleared up for now so lets put this off for another time sorrymasen."
- She quickly followed up with a deep bow. Which I responded by nodding my head in
- satisfaction.
- "Ah yes, now that's what I'm looking for. It sounds different from the usual but
- whatever."
- "What's with this comment...its the same as the usual isn't it?"
- Muttered Iroha unhappily, she seems to have glared at me too. Yeah whatever, that's the
- reaction I expected...taking a distance away from me as I lie down feeling exhausted,
- Iroha pointed at her cheeks with her index finger, while saying with a poker face.
- "I won't mind if you use me as an excuse, though."
- "Bad excuse, and its not the real reason after all..."
- Iroha ignored my correction, and continued poking her cheek, looking troubled:
- "But to be fair, I doubt that wouldn't be the kind of reason Yukinoshita senpai will accept
- either."
- "Of course its not...how did we loop back to this? But hey, at least our great Irohasu can
- help by saying a few goods throughout our conversation, no?"
- "Eh...I don't want to... Also it impossible for me to do so."
- "Impossible... Even answering that in an instant..."
- Wait, did she seriously just said 'I don't want to'? As I looked towards her, wondering if I
- misheard Mada Mada for Yada Yada, Iroha made a soft cough, then patted on her chest
- for no reason and said:
- "Yes, a girl's decision cannot be easily be changed. Well, but if its something decided by
- someone else we can simply make amends to it, if that decision is a pain we can act like
- we forgotten it."
- "You're the worst..."
- Nonono, that's just you isn't it? Its not a girls exclusive thing, but varies from one to
- another. The kind of equality where everyone can be All Might is something that a person
- without talents like me believes in.
- As she turned back towards me, Iroha said with a worried face.
- "And considering that its Yukinoshita senpai we're dealing with here, its going to be hard
- isn't it..."
- "Of course, of course it would be..."
- Not because its a girl's decision, but Yukinoshita's decision, a decision that I can't go
- against easily. Looking back at my year long experiences of interacting with her, its
- obvious that Yukinoshita's honesty and seriousness won't allow her to take back those
- words that easily.
- Shutting her eyes closed, crossing her arms, Iroha made a short groan and said.
- "For this time, I can feel that she has been caring for me a lot...so I felt like supporting her
- decision too."
- She then stated her final stand with a bitter smile:
- "Which is why, I can't bring myself to help out in persuading her, I'm sorry senpai."
- I told her not to worry while making my best smile possible, which she replied with a
- gentle nod. For my random idea of her saying some good things to Yukinoshita, she
- listened properly and even considered things thoroughly. I have to say, Isshiki Iroha
- really is a much decent person than how I used to judge her. Which made me feel sorry
- for attempting to drag her into such a messy issue.
- Yes, I should be the one to do the planning.
- ...Now then, how should I tell her exactly? I can't figure it out, she is truly a big trouble,
- that girl...but when it comes to being a troublesome I'm the same as her, perhaps even
- more troublesome in comparison.
- I started to rub on my forehead to have a better blood flow around my brain, while doing
- so, Iroha kept staring at me without making a sound.
- "......"
- "What is it?"
- I asked as I realize her view focusing on me, she shook her head and answered.
- "Not really, I was just thinking on how persistent you are."
- "Ah...well yes."
- To hear such a direct comment, while being stared by her, I find myself in a lack myself of
- words. Thus I could only reply in such a short, incomplete manner. Iroha slowly walked
- near me until reaching an arm's distance, while continuing to look into my eyes.
- "But why? Being rejected by Yukinoshita senpai by herself, and after hearing such words
- from Haruno senpai. For what exact reason are you pushing yourself this much? When it
- comes to such a sticky situation one would simply stay away as far as possible, isn't it
- so."
- She phrased her question in a way that doesn't allow me a chance to answer. Even if I
- could, I doubt that I can come out with a proper answer.
- Iroha steps closer every time she asks a question, while I move back to maintain our
- distance, to the point I could feel the back of my legs pressing itself onto the bench.
- "There's a lot of reasons behind it..."
- Realizing that there is no further space for me to move away, I could only avoid looking
- directly at her, but Iroha proceeded to grab onto my tie.
- "Please answer me seriously, senpai."
- Iroha forcefully re turned my head towards her, the obvious twist on my necktie tells me
- that she's applying a lot of strength onto it.
- I'm unable to look away, neither could I avert my line of view from the image of Iroha's
- soft lips and glowing eyes. In front of her determined expression, I could only do my best
- to open my heavy mouth.
- "I swear, there really are a lot of reasons behind it, its impossible to state each of them
- clearly just yet..."
- "Its fine even if you said it vaguely."
- Iroha does not give any room for me to play around with words, removing all chances for
- me to remain silent.
- But how exactly should I phrase it to make her understand better.
- These painful feelings are not something that could be simply expressed through words,
- but what's more troublesome about them is that they could be described and be
- interpreted as anything within the acceptable range. Such a translucent, unclear,
- shapeless thing. To apply existing words onto it will only slowly chip it off from the sides
- to the point it reaches degradation, ending up as a total mistake.
- More importantly, I could not accept the act of simplifying things into one single
- sentence.
- Up until now, I've always relied on excuses like bringing my sister into the picture, or
- stating that I'm just doing my job. Even just now, I tried using Iroha's request as an
- excuse, something that she would usually get along with.
- But what Iroha Isshiki wanted is not such dishonest words. Her eyes keep telling me that,
- it doesn't need to come with a motive, it doesn't need a proper elaboration,
- its fine for me to make it unclear, its fine for me to say it vaguely.
- 'Show me your answer.'
- "......I have a responsibility."
- "Responsibility, huh."
- Muttered Iroha in a low voice, she took a short breath, and slightly inclined her head.
- Did it sound too confusing to her? She lowered her head and seemingly thought for a
- while, then looked back up, signaling me to continue.
- I nodded in reply, and started assembling words in my head. Probably because Iroha is
- grabbing onto it, my slightly loose necktie now felt very tight, I find it hard to breath, and
- my chest felt unusually hot.
- "For things to become so complicated, and reaching such a state of codependency, its
- safe to say that I am responsible for causing all of these. Which is why I wanted to clean
- up my own mess, not a decision to change things up, but simply how I have always done
- it. That's all that there is." as I finally said out my conclusion that sounded like an answer,
- Iroha's hand let go of my necktie, and slipped down as it loses its strength.
- "Ahaha...my bad, it sounded so different what my expectations, that I spaced out a bit
- right there. Ah...your necktie is completely messed up too, I'm really sorry."
- "Ah, don't mind, it was kinda twisted before you grabbed on it anyway..."
- Even after hearing that, Iroha seemed to think that she shouldn't have done that,
- muttering words like yabai desu, while anxiously rubbing my necktie with her hands,
- attempting to straighten it. She rubbed on it so hard, that my body wobbled along her
- movements.
- Her hands stopped all of a sudden.
- "Those words that you said just now, can you properly tell the same to Yukinoshita
- senpai?"
- Iroha's eyes are still focused onto my necktie, making a weird expression that I can't
- identify.
- I couldn't answer her in time, so Iroha pressed on my necktie again, urging me for an
- answer. Her flaxen brown started to rustle as if they're teasing me. Her cute expression
- that seemed like she was joking gave me a peace of mind, which made me smile before I
- realized it.
- ".....I'll definitely say it, but the real question here is whether these words can reach her."
- "Hmph, truly a troublesome bunch of senpais."
- Iroha looked up with a speechless kind of smile, and then slapped on my necktie.
- "For me as long as the Service Club would help me out then there will always be less
- things to worry of. So go for it alright."
- Iroha swiftly stood up, after taking a few steps, she turned back at me, and waved in a
- way that signals me to follow her. Guess she finally allowed me to enter the student
- council room.
- I lifted up my stiff body, and walked towards her.
- 2-2
- As I entered the student council room alongside Iroha, a fragrant scent could be smelled,
- which seems to be some kind of indoor perfume. Unlike the one we have in the Service
- Club room, its a more refreshingly sweet fruity smell, without the clear fragrance of tea
- within in.
- The student council room isn't really big, and the stacking piles of items within the room
- shows a sign of its long history. In the center of all this mess is a small space that looks
- unusually tidy and clean.
- Beside the poignantly designed chairman table places a simple work desk, where
- Yukinoshita is standing behind it, while looking at a white board.
- Considering that no other student council members are in here, Yukinoshita and Iroha
- probably stayed here by themselves to discuss on a new course of plan. Words in red
- blue and black could be seen on the whiteboard, as she notices someone else entering,
- Yukinoshita turned her head over.
- "Oh, Hikigaya kun."
- "Sup."
- Yukinoshita acted naturally even after seeing me, showing a faint smile, as if she wasn't
- affected emotionally by the self restraining order.
- "Isshiki san, lets have a short break shall we."
- Saying that, she unlocked the fixating valve on the white board, flipped the board around
- to show its other surface, and pushed it aside.
- Yukinoshita proceeded to prepare tea, she turned on the electric kettle in this room, and
- took out tea bags while waiting for the water to boil.
- Looking at her doing these actions in a skillful manner, I felt reminiscent all of a sudden.
- As she realizes my sights laying on her,
- Yukinoshita shifted her eyes, and stopped at a chair in front of her desk, signaling me to
- take a seat.
- The popping sounds of water boiling can be heard as I pulled the chair to make space.
- Iroha then walked lively towards the chairman desk, sitting on a luxurious looking
- armchair. I mean that chair is cool looking and all, BUT CAN YOU DO THIS!? Only 399 by
- the way. (I'm doing my part Pewds)
- Soon, Yukinoshita pushed over a cup that looks different from our usual tea set. As I
- thanked her, I held up the cup of tea, only to smell an unfamiliar scent.
- "Have you heard of it?"
- She asked an unspecific question, but its obvious on what topic are we talking about
- here.
- "Ah, yes. Since I was beside Yuigahama just now."
- Yukinoshita seemed surprised for a second, but quickly went back to her calm
- expression from before.
- "...I see."
- "I already talked to Hiratsuka sensei to learn about the details. Is it fine on your side? I
- can help if there's anything that requires my assistance..."
- As I was halfway through my sentence, Yukinoshita brought the paper cup near to her
- mouth, took a light sip of tea to moisturize her mouth and answered:
- "There is no need for that, as we're already working on the appropriate
- countermeasures."
- Comparing to the warmth from the cup of tea in my hands, our conversation seemed to
- have started in a cold awkward tone. Being uneasy of such an atmosphere, Iroha made a
- few twists on her body, while glancing towards me, telling me to "please say it nicely".
- No wait a second Iroha, for a conversation to work, stuff like directions, sequences,
- procedures and timing, even bravery are all relevant essentials isn't it? Man, it just feel so
- difficult to make a proper conversation. Even now, my attempt to make a test on her
- intention to talk about this topic got shut down immediately.
- Anyway for the conversation to continue, an appropriate head start is required, which
- isn't really something I'm used to.
- I made a few blows over my cup of tea, thinking on how should I start the conversation.
- Soon after the hot sensation starts to fade away from the tea, reaching a temperature
- where my cat tongue can take it in, I took a sip of the tea, and asked with a soft voice.
- "So... what's your plan?"
- Upon hearing my question, Yukinoshita looked into my eyes, as if she's trying to instigate
- something out of me.
- "We're still reviewing our existing proposal, for now there's nothing much to say about
- our plans."
- Reviewing, huh...But considering all those words that I saw on the whiteboard just now,
- and Iroha glancing towards Yukinoshita with a weird look, it seems that the main
- direction they'll be taking has already been decided, but she didn't want to talk about it.
- She even flipped the whiteboard around so that no one could see it, perhaps forcing an
- answer is not the best course of action.
- In that case, its better to talk in a more roundabout way, since the conversation will
- continue to be derailed with my current method. I looked towards Iroha and asked.
- "Is there anything to do right now?"
- "...For now, nothing much."
- Iroha looked away while answering, but she didn't look towards Yukinoshita either, so
- its hard to say whether this is a lie or not.
- But looking at the absence of the other student council committees, and the lax
- atmosphere within this room. It does seems that the situation wasn't as urgent as it
- seems to be, at least there's no specific action that has to be done immediately.
- "So to put it in other words, right now is not the suitable time to execute immediate
- actions?"
- "Of course, after all we only received the self restrain order by today."
- Yukinoshita replied the conclusion that I muttered out accidentally, with the same calm
- tone. For someone who just received the notice not long ago, her words lack a sense of
- anxiety one would usually expect. Most probably she too, has already noticed the other
- meaning behind 'apply self restrain', which is why she can remain her composure right
- now.
- For the self restraining order from the school's executives, me and Yukinoshita share a
- similar view on the school's intent. A common topic is the spice to inducing an active
- conversation, I can probably touch on this topic a little more.
- I looked back at Yukinoshita.
- "But there are countermeasures that can be designed based on that isn't so. After all it is
- only a restraining order, in fact straight out ignoring such an order is possible in case
- you're desperate."
- The ones who gave out the restraining order are the school executives, specifically a
- concession they made towards Hiratsuka sensei. To request for someone to apply self
- restrain, it also means handing over the right of action to its subject, a wording that could
- be portrayed in a way where its subject is allowed to make their decisions based on their
- own judgement. While its original intent is to request the prom organizers to cancel the
- event without them sounding to be forceful, Yukinoshita can intentionally
- misunderstood its meaning, and complicate things further, by using the debate where
- they're only asked to apply self restraint, but the final decision still lies in the hands of
- the student council.
- I said that with a bitter smile, being aware that Yukinoshita probably knows better of the
- situation than I do.
- Which Yukinoshita replied without raising her eyebrows:
- "If possible I prefer not to take such a risk,"
- "while using the ambiguity of the term against them could work. But simply showing
- them an unyielding attitude won't be enough."
- "I am aware of that too, so we'll only use this to open up a platform for discussions."
- Just as she said, to forcefully conduct the prom, is merely a self destructing that will only
- work once. Such a reckless decision cannot be made if they still plan to organize the
- prom for the years to come.
- Their current plan is to apply their self restraining status as their means to negotiate
- with the parents.
- We might organize it without school supervision, we might set up the venue at
- somewhere not within school grounds, we might do something that goes beyond your
- imaginable level of extremeness, are you still fine with it? Threatening them with such
- statements.
- Even if the student council won't actually do such things, it is an effective method to
- make the parents accept their request to negotiate.
- It is the hard way to do things, but it will open up room for negotiation.
- But what matters afterwards, is what material can they present during the negotiation.
- I stood up, and walked over to move the whiteboard. Yukinoshita sighed, but did not
- attempt to stop me.
- I pulled out the whiteboard and flipped it over.
- As I expected, suggestions of the strategy they can take has been written on the
- whiteboard, and other information that relates to the new direction the prom will take.
- It seems that they had quite a discussion, traces of their discussion were left on every
- corner on the board has. There are two different kinds of handwriting and writing style
- on the board, which seemingly belongs to Yukinoshita and Iroha.
- The sentences that mostly end with a question mark, but properly phrased and written
- horizontally were probably written by Yukinoshita, while the clump of sentences that
- end with a large exclamation mark seems to belong to Iroha.
- Judging from the order those sentences were arranged in, Yukinoshita and Iroha each
- came out with one suggestion at a time, and proceeded to comment on each other's
- suggestion, in order to find out which idea is better and the possible improvements.
- "So you two came out with these ideas?"
- "More accurately, I question Yukinoshita senpai's idea, while Yukinoshita senpai refutes
- my suggestions."
- "Is that so, then its quite the constructive discussion you had there."
- Giving more than one suggestion is important when one reaches a stagnant situation. At
- least they're able to more options, and both suggestions can compromise with each
- other, but being too fixated on denying each other won't make things progress either.
- Only by forming an opposing situation, the discussion could move forward. But merely
- pointing out whether the suggestions would work, will only make them reach a 'yes or
- no' kind of conclusion.
- So, exactly what kind of conclusion have came to...eh? Among all the written things, I
- can't seem to spot something that feels identical to a conclusion, its like reading through
- a note that only its owner can understand.
- "...So, where's your conclusion?"
- "Lets see...the ones in the red circle."
- As Iroha answered, I took another look at the whiteboard, there are indeed a few spots
- that are circled in red.
- Gorgeous, wholesome, dress code restriction, supporting guidelines, supervising officials,
- upload prohibited, OK!
- That's all of them.
- "Hmmm...I kinda understo...no wait wait wait, I don't understand what's going on here at
- all."
- Like, what is this, a spot the word game? I felt like I can understand it yet I can't at the
- same time...what am I looking at exactly?
- I looked back, hoping for an explanation.
- Yukinoshita then placed her finger on the cup mouth, looking at the gently swinging
- waves on the surface of the tea.
- "I was still sorting things out when you came."
- "Oh, that was...sorry for interrupting."
- Yukinoshita sounded as if she was simply stating a fact with no intent of blaming anyone,
- which made me stutter at my words. From how she was standing in front of the board
- when I first stepped into the room, it does seem that Yukinoshita was finalizing things. I
- apologized for my sudden interruption, which she gently shook her head, telling me not
- to mind.
- To shift away from this awkward atmosphere, I cleared up my throat and ask with a clear
- voice:
- "So, what are these words supposed to mean. I don't really get it"
- This time, it was Yukinoshita who seemed awkward, pausing for a short moment before
- she answered:
- "...As I said, we're still reviewing the proposal."
- She looked down and didn't say anything further. Well, considering that Yukinoshita
- doesn't want me to be involved, it make sense that she would prefer not to elaborate any
- further.
- Which means, ready, se, no, Irohasu chan~ I briefly glanced at Iroha, which she replied
- while showing a reluctant face.
- "Um...to put it simple, our current focus is to... make amendments on our clothing
- restrictions? Am I saying this right Yukinoshita senpai?"
- As Iroha turned over to confirm with Yukinoshita, probably thinking that it's not good to
- just ignore her, Yukinoshita answered reluctantly.
- "We plan to enforce our dress code to prohibit extravagant or very revealing clothes.
- After properly defining the proper requirements, we'll contact the clothing renter from
- our side to prepare a suitable catalog."
- "Oh..."
- I see. Setting up a standard for the acceptable dresses, in order to guarantee the
- wholesomeness on the appearances of the students during the event. And most students
- will prefer renting clothes through the student council, so they'll naturally have to
- adhere to the dress code guidelines. But there are also exceptions...
- "What about students who intends to wear their own clothes?"
- Iroha then pointed towards the circled words and answered.
- "Since most participants will be wearing clothes that meets our guidelines, those
- students will most probably restrain themselves to not stand out too much from the
- group."
- "Right, peer pressure."
- "That's not a nice word to describe it..."
- Iroha glared at me, looking disgusted and unhappy. But isn't that exactly what she
- meant...
- Even then, I doubt that everyone would accept to blend in with the crowd. No matter
- which era we're in there will always be that one eccentric person with a thought like "I
- will walk my own path even if that means being different from the others!! Look at my
- erotic image that makes me stand out from dem plebs!! It's☆party☆time!!", while
- placing a Pichelle on top of their heads (Ref 1: A Japan fashion magazine).
- "But wouldn't there still be a few students who would wear ridiculous clothing on the
- purpose of gaining attention? It is an important moment in their school life, after all."
- "We're aware of such a possibility. So existing countermeasures have already been
- planned."
- Yukinoshita gave a direct answer, but did not further elaborate on her statement. But
- take a better look at these clues, and the answer will eventually reveal itself.
- "...Will they really accept or obey the restriction to not upload anything on the SNS?"
- I tapped on that unusually small text on the lowest part of the white board. Was the
- written this small because of their lack of space? Or their lack of confidence in this
- solution?
- Yukinoshita let out a very tired sigh.
- "About that, even if its hard to have them obey it, it wouldn't hurt to at least have a
- written notice either."
- "Even if any issue arises from that, the responsibility will only fall on them for not
- obeying the rules isn't so? After all, they're no longer kids anymore."
- Said Iroha.
- While it's true that the graduates are above the age of consent, but there is still the
- general idea where people above the age of 18 can be viewed as adults, and it wouldn't
- stop people from criticizing the organizers either. While I was thinking it through,
- Yukinoshita made another remark.
- "We're aware that simply restricting them from uploading pictures online will cause
- dissatisfaction, so we intend to compensate by hiring freelance photographers, and sell
- photos or data to the participants after the prom.
- "Ah...I see how it is."
- For some reason Iroha raised up her chest in satisfaction, I guess girls do have the need
- of taking cute pictures.
- Hiring a photographer and selling pictures won't be a problem. Considering that recent
- school events such as our sports day also restrict parents from taking photos, while the
- school openly sells pictures to them.
- Even during the Showa period, there are certain occasions where students would bring
- along a photographer with them for events like their graduation trip, and purchase
- photos from them, so this should be acceptable by the parents.
- This might even bring us to interesting stories like, someone writing down the purchase
- number of the picture that has his favorite girl in it, only to be noticed by the other
- students. asking him: "Yo, this picture doesn't have you in it no? Lets see...bruhhhhhhh!"
- rumors then quickly spread around among the class, the poor guy getting teased by his
- classmates, and getting rejected on the second day before he could even confess. Any
- parent who had such a painful experience will understand what selling photos really
- mean wouldn't they?
- Cough.
- Anyway, setting it up as a written rule on the surface, bringing out the argument where
- its their own responsibilities to obey the rules, and convince those who felt dissatisfied
- by bringing up the advantages of this rule, while preparing an alternative choice for the
- students. A viable plan indeed.
- The students might go against it, but what's more important is that the student council
- have a relevant point that can be accepted by the parents.
- While uncertainties still exist, being able to show the parents that the organizers have
- countermeasures to deal with the concerns they expressed on is what matters here.
- "I see...a good plan indeed."
- "Thank you."
- I briefly made a remark while staring at the whiteboard, which Yukinoshita replied with
- minimal words.
- Even if its only an outline, the amount of thought put into it within such a short time is
- incredible.
- However, there is still a few parts where I can question of.
- "So with this, what are the expected chances of winning?"
- I asked them as I knocked on the whiteboard with the back of my finger. Iroha made an
- uhm sound looking displeased, while Yukinoshita did not show any changes in her
- expression, and answered in her usual calm tone.
- " We took their concerns into consideration, and came out with methods to deal with the
- said issues. I believe that our chances of getting their approval won't be low."
- "Well yeah, that seems to be the case. That they'll approve of the improved proposal now
- that you dealt with their concerns...under normal circumstances, that is."
- But I know, that things won't be that simple this time.
- This is not the same situation like the ones we've always dealt with.
- All these weird concerns and requests from the parents were presented to us based on
- the absolute intent of shutting down the graduation prom. Not with the intent of making
- the prom a reality, nor the intent of expecting improvements from its organizers. No
- matter how much compromises were made, the chances of them approving the event are
- still slim, they're lacking a crucial element if they wish to get past such an ill intent.
- The one crucial element that Yukinoshita can't obtain, or specifically, can't attempt to
- obtain.
- And this is where I step in.
- I've been observing Yukinoshita's reactions in order to find an opening to talk to her,
- now seems to be the right moment. I glanced at Iroha, which she nodded lightly in
- approval.
- "Yukinoshita, there is something that I wish to speak properly to you of."
- Hearing that, Yukinoshita looked at me with an astonished face.
- "...Alrighty, then I should probably seek myself ou..."
- Pretending to react towards the atmosphere, Iroha stood up intending to leave. But
- Yukinoshita stopped her immediately.
- "I believe that its related to the graduation prom? If that's the case its better that Isshiki
- san stay present too."
- "Ahaha...is that so."
- Answering her awkwardly, Iroha glanced me briefly, which I reacted by shaking my
- head, telling her that its fine. Iroha then sat back down with an uneasy look on her face.
- I'm aware that Yukinoshita does not want me to be involved. In fact she probably prefers
- to avoid having a conversation with me at all. That's why she asked Iroha to stay, as the
- presence of a third person might make it harder for me to speak out.
- But if that's the case, then I just have the hold on to my resolve.
- "...Can I help out with the prom?"
- Right after I said that, Yukinoshita's eyes open up wide, seeming to be shocked. She then
- lowered her view, and slightly opened her mouth as if she was about to say something.
- If I simply waited for her to give a reply, she'll definitely try to derail the conversation
- like she did just now. So I interrupted her by continuing to speak, forcing out every
- reasons I could think of without leaving any gaps in between.
- "I don't think that there's any problems in your amendments to the proposal. But, the
- rate of success isn't too high. So we should probably work on another set of proposal. I
- know that the original proposal has been rejected, so maybe we can think of a third or
- fourth option on how to change things up."
- As I continued to speak, I realized that what I said doesn't seem to convey my message
- properly. But if I take any pauses I'm afraid that I might end up feeling breathless.
- "Now that things have developed to this stage, its not like I'm taking the initiative to do
- something, I'll simply act based on your instructions, just look at me as a character who
- comes up with a few ideas while standing near to the wall. This kind of role has no
- difference from that of Iroha and the others right? Just doing the kind of thing that I
- usually do, that's all I wish for."
- Yukinoshita lightly bit on her lower lip, and listened silently, she doesn't seem to be
- angry or sad, as if she's trying her best to suppress her feelings.
- ".....Indeed, just like how things have always been."
- "If that's the ca..."
- Yukinoshita interrupted, lowering her head as she continued speaking.
- "In the end, I'll still have to rely on you..."
- Her voice seemingly sounded calm and steady, yet every word she said drops a
- suffocating pressure on my chest.
- Yukinoshita lifted her head back up, staring at me with a smile which resembles that of a
- mother looking at her playful child, gently, slowly, said out those words of persuasion.
- "Which is exactly why, I wish to change it, those words that my sister said, you know that
- too don't you?"
- "I......yes."
- Hearing her say that, I couldn't help but avert my eyes away.
- Codependency.
- Perhaps its not just me, Yukinoshita herself is aware of that term too.
- Which is why she refuses to let things remain the way they were, to correct what's wrong
- with our relationship, to become independent.
- While I can't even find myself to question what's right or wrong, simply sugar coating
- our relationship with a vague term, constraining myself to such a twisted relationship.
- "But......this is a responsibility that I should take. It was never about which side is on the
- wrong, isn't so?"
- As I fought my through my brain to complete this sentence, I looked into Yukinoshita
- eyes, they're twitching painfully, which made me look away again, I can't find myself to
- continue now that I've seen such an expression from her.
- But if I don't say it now, I might never have another chance in the future. For I am aware
- of how much of a troublesome and unreliable person I am.
- Which is why I have to let her know. Even if its hard to tell her how I feel, even if I can't
- express those feelings properly, I have, to let her know.
- "Of course, I can simply choose to step aside and not do anything. But such a method
- won't change anything for the better, if the methods we've been using up until now is
- wrong, then we seek for a different method, and different mindset, a different form of
- communication..."
- How could I make my words sound better? I continued to search for better terms to use,
- yet the monster of self awareness and rationality continues to bare it fangs at me.
- Ambiguous thoughts form themselves into a hideous shape as they leave my mouth,
- every word I say strays myself further and further from their actual meaning. Am I being
- too anxious, before I realize it my hands clenched themselves into fists under the table. I
- took a deep breath, and opened up my palms to wipe off the sweat onto my pants.
- Did my words reach her the way I wanted them to?
- "So...no matter what kind of ending awaits, I wish to take responsibility for it properly."
- No, perhaps it doesn't matter.
- "Which is why...I really want to...help you out."
- These words were only said for the sake of my self satisfaction, for the sake of forcing my
- wish onto Yukinoshita.
- Being aware of the true nature of my actions, I am unable to look into her eyes, thus I
- could only steer my vision away from her.
- "......Thank you. But its fine now, you've said enough."
- Her voice sounded as tender as the sounds of snow falling during the night, a beautiful
- sensation that felt like it'll vanish all of a sudden, a strong force that could attract every
- being in this world. Her expression seemed like she is at peace, in front of such a cute yet
- pitiful smile, I could only hold back my breath and voice.
- Within this frosty silence, Yukinoshita continued to speak in a soft voice.
- "It was my fault to begin with, always letting you and Yuigahama san handle
- things...that's why we've entered such an unclear situation. If I don't clean things up,
- none of us will be able to move forward, isn't so? The one who should be taking
- responsibility, is me."
- "......No, its my responsibility too."
- Yukinoshita lowered her head after hearing my reply, slowly shaking her head. As I
- struggled to find a better way to continue the conversation. Iroha interrupted us.
- "Ano, may I ask how long do you two plan to revolve on the same problem?"
- She sounded mad as she asked the question, staring at me and Yukinoshita.
- Neither of us could answer her, so we could only continue to lower our heads. I guess
- that's just how things work between us, no conclusion could be obtained no matter how
- much we talk about it, and our viewpoints will remain as parallel lines. Knowing that, me
- and Yukinoshita decided not to continue, both of us remaining silent.
- In the end of the day, my thoughts still failed to reach her.
- The message can never be conveyed if we refuse to speak, but even through speaking the
- message still can't reach the other side. Throughout the whole year, we have always had
- this sort of feeling. That the idea of talking to each other to achieve a mutual
- understanding is merely an arrogant thought, while the idea of achieving mutual
- understanding without communicating with each other is merely an illusion.
- Which is why, we'll always have to properly think on what to speak of, how to say them
- properly. Being able to speak of any pointless topics to our freedom, yet remaining silent
- on the most important things.
- But, these feelings that I wanted to express is not some kind of phrase or term, and in the
- end of the day I'm not an expert of communicating through words.
- In that case, the solution is simple.
- Our medium of communication has always been there.
- "I understand. Then I'll stop talking about it, I won't help you out either."
- Whew, I said it loud and clear. At the corner of my field of view, Iroha took a gasp.
- Yukinoshita smiled and nodded her head, looking relieved after hearing my reply.
- I already expected such an answer since the beginning. But without properly talking to
- her I can't be sure of things. If I don't make our positions clear the conversation can't go
- on.
- I smirked and continued saying.
- "......But I never said that I won't oppose you."
- "Huh?"
- Iroha leaned over her head.
- Yukinoshita also seemed confused as she first heard me, but closed up her eyelids soon
- after, has she understood what I was trying to say?
- I put up a sarcastic smile, and put up both of my fist up to my chest.
- "I don't think its hard to guess, what happens when our opinions oppose each other,
- right?"
- After listening to Hiratsuka sensei's talk about heroes of justice fighting out a solution,
- this is the hazy idea that I came out with.
- When communicating through works couldn't work out, then I'll express myself through
- my actions.
- "I've been concerned with the prom's status for quite a while after all, so I'd feel kinda
- upset if the event fails to be approved. But I can't fully approve of your amendments to
- the proposal either......In that case, I'll make one by myself."
- "Are you being serious about this?"
- I nodded in reply to Yukinoshita's question.
- Even if its a one sided decision, this is indeed a way for me to gain minimal relevance to
- the graduation prom.
- If I give up here, that would mean that I'm denying all the relationship I've built with her,
- and the Service Club.
- Which is why I have to try, to prove to Yukinoshita that our relationship is not
- codependency.
- To prove to her that, all these time that we've been through has a more positive meaning
- to it.
- Only after proving that, we can slowly move towards a better, a more correct
- relationship.
- "Our competition haven't ended, and not everyone has to go with the same way of doing
- things either. So, its fine for the two of us to take a different route from each other, isn't
- so?"
- Yukinoshita said a similar thing to me a long time ago. But I believe that she still
- remembers it, otherwise she wouldn't be biting her lower lip right now.
- Referring to how we set up the competition back then, as long as the basic structure and
- concept of the competition haven't changed, the rule should still apply to our current
- situation.
- I waited for Yukinoshita to reply. But only a few troubled sighs could be heard from her.
- Iroha who was sitting beside the silent Yukinoshita answered.
- "I think this could work, "
- "As long as the prom could be approved, the process doesn't seem that relevant to me,
- and what Yukinoshita senpai said just now won't matter in this case, so it should be fine."
- Iroha's indifferent statement, made Yukinoshita find it hard to think of a reply.
- The silence within the room continues to loom. Perhaps such silence is the exact answer
- that I needed, thinking of that, I let out a breath of relief.
- As I guessed, even if I brought up the competition as an excuse, she wouldn't just accept
- it......despite her competitive nature, Yukinoshita Yukino is not a simple minded person.
- "......Well, not like that I plan on getting approval from your side anyway, I'm just stating
- on what I plan to do afterwards, that's the only point that I want you to know."
- This is not a negotiation. Simply my notice, my declaration of war.
- She should be clever enough to understand the situation, Yukinoshita let out a sigh, took
- a shallow bite on her lips. Closed her eyes painfully, and put her hand under her mouth,
- and started thinking.
- Faint sounds of breathing flow within the silence of the room. But unlike the speechless
- situation from before, the quietness right now does not give of a sense of rejection, but
- felt more like an intermission towards the next stage.
- Yukinoshita tapped on the edge of her lips, which then opened up, creating a voice that
- doesn't sound like a sigh or mutter.
- "If that's the case......"
- Did she originally intended not to say it out? The words that just left her mouth paused
- midway, as if they're about to vanish into the thin air and never resurface.
- As I leaned forward, ready to ask for a follow up. Yukinoshita opened her eyes, her grim
- expression loses momentum slowly, returning into its original calmness.
- Like a frozen blue flame, beautiful yet faint. The awe inspiring clearness on her
- expression took away my breath, made me forgot to seek for a continuation of her words,
- and even filled up my entire field of view.
- "The victor will have the right to command the other to do anything...I believe that its the
- case?"
- A sharp light glimmers among her pale blue eyes. Unlike how she seemed to be lost in
- her thoughts a while ago, her eyes are now free of confusion, staring at me openly.
- I looked properly into her eyes, and nodded in conirmation.
- "Yes, that will be the case."
- Its been a while since the last time I had chills from Yukinoshita, this nostalgic feeling
- that reminds me of our conversation from back then. The realization that the
- atmosphere between us went back like how it usually was, made me let out a breath of
- relief.
- The tension within the air has finally gone away.
- Iroha, who has been listening to our conversation all this time muttered.
- "Ew, what was that all about? Gross."
- "Hey now..."
- As I looked at her, Iroha lowered down her head like a kid who got scolded for saying
- something inappropriate.
- "Hmphhhh...but it really does feel out of place and a little creepy isn't it...also senpai, why
- are you getting ahead of yourself all of a sudden?"
- Iroha blurted out her ridiculous comment with a dissatisfied look on her face, oh come
- on......as I grunted at Iroha, someone started to laugh all of a sudden.
- "Yes, it does feel a little gross. Ufufufu..."
- Yukinoshita laughed in a pretty comical way. Its been a while since I last saw such a
- carefree laugh from her, a smile as mesmerizing as a blooming flower. Which Iroha
- nodded her head repeatedly like she's saying 'I know right!'. Seeing them acting this way,
- something that has been pulled tight within me suddenly snaps into half, making me lose
- my strength uncontrollably.
- "You two..."
- "Ahaha...cough, that was simply a joke. But now you've reminded me, everything did
- started from that day indeed."
- Yukinoshita held back her smiling face, with the colors of happiness still lingering within
- her eyes, she stared at me with a provoking look, that also felt a little delightful.
- "So allow me to finalize things. The both of us will do things by our own methods in the
- aim of realizing the graduation prom, and the victor gets to demand something from the
- loser, is that it?"
- "Ah...yes."
- I answered briefly, which Yukinoshita nodded in satisfaction. I stared at her smug face
- with my mouth half open.
- She probably realized that I was acting strangely, as Yukinoshita looked over and asked.
- "What's wrong?"
- "Nothing... I'm just surprised that you would actually accept the challenge."
- I looked over towards Iroha, trying to make sure if I said it the right way. But probably
- because she wasn't aware of the competition, she seems to be sulking with a very
- displeased face, and shrugged at me like she's saying 'I don't even know what's going on
- here anymore'.
- "Its not really that inconceivable."
- Yukinoshita calmly stated that, as she threaded over her hair over her shoulders.
- Hmm...is this a riddle? But the answer seems pretty difficult to figure out. As I started to
- try solving the question, Yukinoshita smiled at me triumphantly.
- "Didn't you already knew? That I really hate losing to others."
- With a slightly mischievous smile, in a teasing tone, she revealed the answer to her
- riddle.
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